Twisted Sanity

Yah, found this from long ago...still applies except the age....
Life is an endless cycle of worry and regret. You can't help but think back at all the what-ifs, could-have-beens, and maybes. It all could be about the simple things in life. What if I would have eaten that corn dog at the fair? Would my life be any different? Could I have choked on the corn meal? Or would I have met a wonderful person who was selling it to me? There are many twists and turns in the road. As for me�.I like to cut corners on my way down the path�run through the woods. Feel the breeze catch my clothing and take me soaring to new heights that only others dream about. When I take that silent walk through the woods I think of the one who's thoughts are always with me. Then I realize the warmth is just a thought. And I am scared and alone once again.

I am a dreamer yet I am a pessimist. I know in my heart that maybe I shouldn't, but it is a hard habit to break. Have you ever dreamed of being a prince or a princess? I have. I still do. I am 17 years old, but 4 at heart. I see the simple beauty in the flutter of a butterfly's wings. I see the sun as smiling down on me, and how a smile can be contagious. I see things that children my age don't see. Yes, I said children. I may look mature, but I assure you I am very young at heart. I have responsibility�.all the things you need to be "mature", but that doesn't mean I want to be an adult just quite yet. I want to run free, and splash around in the pool. I may become an adult, but I never want to lose what I have. The childish innocence that I still hold on to.

Sometimes no one can help. You have to find your own way through the darkness. There are so many things in this world I will never understand So many unexplainable things that I will never have the answers to Why?

Why is life such a mystery? Why is it that criminal can make it through a robbery and still live but a 17 year old can't even pull out of her own driveway? My friend was recently killed. She was so sweet and honest. Now she will never graduate, get married, or have kids. Sad.

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Pink Elephants and Square Wheels
Current mood: sick

I here again. Its been awhile...but its still all very familure. That deep dark place where I feel most at home. Like a forgotten friend its depth and darkness hugs me. Times like these I wonder if the drugs I take are doing any good. Maybe I just need to be on something stronger than prozac. Sometimes I feel so sad I want to vomit you know.....no of course you don't. I just another messed up fuck.

Some say the end is near.
Some say well see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will.
I sure could use a vacation from this

Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of
Freaks

Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call la
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time. any fucking day.
Learn to swim, Ill see you down in arizona bay.

Fret for your figure and
Fret for your latte and
Fret for your lawsuit and
Fret for your hairpiece and
Fret for your prozac and
Fret for your pilot and
Fret for your cable and
Fret for your car.
Its a
Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of
Freaks

Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call la
The only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
Any fucking time. any fucking day.
Learn to swim, Ill see you down in arizona bay.

Some say a comet will fall from the sky.
Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves.
Followed by faultlines that cannot sit still.
Followed by millions of dumbfounded dipshits.

Some say the end is near.
Some say well see armageddon soon.
I certainly hope we will cuz
I sure could use a vacation from this

Silly shit, stupid shit...

One great big festering neon distraction,
Ive a suggestion to keep you all occupied.

Learn to swim.

Moms gonna fix it all soon.
Moms comin round to put it back the way it ought to be.

Learn to swim.

Fuck l ron hubbard and
Fuck all his clones.
Fuck all those gun-toting
Hip gangster wannabes.

Learn to swim.

Fuck retro anything.
Fuck your tattoos.
Fuck all you junkies and
Fuck your short memory.

Learn to swim.

Fuck smiley glad-hands
With hidden agendas.
Fuck these dysfunctional,
Insecure actresses.

Learn to swim.

Cuz Im praying for rain
And Im praying for tidal waves
I wanna see the ground give way.
I wanna watch it all go down.
Mom please flush it all away.
I wanna watch it go right in and down.
I wanna watch it go right in.
Watch you flush it all away.

Time to bring it down again.
Dont just call me pessimist.
Try and read between the lines.
I cant imagine why you wouldnt
Welcome any change, my friend.

I wanna see it all come down.

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Creole, Chemistry and Nerds

I miss the food, and the fun...but most of all I miss my nerds........

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